Happy Friday, everyone! I know I’ve skipped these accountability posts for the last few weeks, but I’m back this week with a vengeance!
When it comes to the quality and quantity of foods, I feel like I’m doing really well. I’m also feeling incredibly inspired in the kitchen lately. I have so many ideas for fresh recipes and clean food and healthy, delicious eats. Now that we are into spring (although, admittedly, it doesn’t feel like it outside), I find myself drifting toward a lot more of a plant-based diet. In the winter, I tend to crave dairy and meat and heavy carbs, but as soon as that sun starts shining and the snow stops, I want fresh greens, fruit, whole grains, and fish. I want lots of light and bright flavors, and that is great for my recipe inspiration and great for my health. I absolutely cannot wait until our garden is producing and my “grocery shopping” involves just walking out the door with a basket and a knife.
I’m still 100% off the sugar. It’s been kinda remarkably easy for me, and has me really second-guessing the “need” for sugar in my life. Even though I swore I wasn’t going to, I started watching this season of the Biggest Loser the other day (no spoilers, I’m only a few episodes in), and one of the things that really resonated with me was the idea that your home should be your healthy food bubble. You can have cookies and brownies and cupcakes in a healthy lifestyle, but there is no reason to bring them into your bubble. There will be plenty of opportunities to eat those things outside of the bubble, so why would you add that temptation to your safety blanket? I really like the idea of keeping my bubble clean and green, and then getting my “fix” outside of the house. Get dessert with a dinner out at a restaurant. Eat a piece of birthday cake at a birthday party. Have a fancy coffee drink while out shopping. There is a certain nice black and white line about that “bubble” concept that really resonates with my all-or-nothing personality. I definitely still have a lot of thinking about how I’m going to go about reincorporating sugar back into my life now that Lent is coming to a close.
How to improve next week: I’d like to pick one day this upcoming week and track my food just to see how I’m doing with a typical day. As I’ve said before, my issue comes with portion control, and just as long as I keep an eye on it, I think I should be fine.
Fitness for the past few weeks has been a world of extremes. When it was nice out, I’d be working my buns off. I actually wore my heart rate monitor one day while I was out doing work around here and I burned about 900 calories in three hours. It’s not an extreme amount, but enough that I was tired and very, very sore the next day. And that was a short day.
Since the nice days are devoted 100% to working outside, I tend to be overcompensating on the not-so-nice days. I spend the cold and rainy days inside cleaning and working on the computer to make up for the neglect from the outside work. Which means, not a lot of activity on those days. If I were a more devoted person, I’d hop on the treadmill on those days, but the truth is, I’m not. And I’m working my arse off on outside days, so I’m mostly okay with that.
I’m still struggling with my mindset accepting that yes, indeed, three hours of shoveling is a workout and not feeling guilty for not using the treadmill in the last three weeks. The definition of an “active life” extends way beyond the gym, and I’m constantly reminding myself of that.
How to improve next week: Stop worrying about it so much. Just keep moving and just…be.
I’ve been a water rockstar for the past few weeks. Partially because it makes me feel so good, but also partially because I’m fighting off a UTI (TMI, right?). So to fight that off, I’m draaaaaankin’ my weight in water and pucker-inducing 100% cranberry juice.
Interestingly enough, when I’m in the house, at the desk and working, I drink a ton of water because my water bottle is right there. But when I’m outside working? I drink a lot less because I’m moving all around and my water bottle is never close. I’m actually considering wearing my CamelBak when I work outside. Especially once it starts to get warmer.
How to improve next week: Keep on, keepin’ on.
Starting Weight: 236.8 lbs
Last Weigh In: 229.1 lbs
This Week’s Weight: 226.4 lbs
This Week’s Loss: -2.7 lbs
Total Loss: -10.4 lbs.
Woohoo! Down 10 pounds since January 20th! It certainly is coming off slow this time around (that 2.7 pounds took about three weeks to come off), but I’m moving in the right direction. I feel myself closing in on my “happy weight.” I know that sounds crazy that someone could be happy at 200+ pounds, but I honestly feel my best when I’m somewhere between 210-215ish, so we’re closing in.
When I first started losing weight, back when I was close to 300 pounds, I thought I’d be my absolute happiest at 150 pounds. That was the magic number. But then I started to realize that your happy weight isn’t just about how you look and what size your jeans are, it’s also about what is maintainable with the lifestyle you want.
I could get down to 150 pounds. I could be a single-digit size. I know how. And maybe I’d even be crazy happy with my appearance at that weight. But that’d also mean I’d have to skip trying new beers at our local brewery. And only have dessert once a month. And count all my calories. And spend hours a week on the treadmill. My genetics just don’t make it easy to maintain that size, so it’d take some serious work to get there and stay there. And honestly, I’m just not willing to do that. Maybe that makes me lazy, but it’s the truth.
For me, finding my happy weight is a balance between health, appearance and lifestyle. At nearly 300 pounds, I wasn’t healthy, I didn’t like my appearance, but my lifestyle was certainly enjoyable. At my lowest weight, I was healthy, and I liked my appearance, but I hated my lifestyle of calorie-counting and dessert-skipping. At my “happy weight” I want to be healthy, like my appearance, and get to enjoy my life. And I think that “magic” number is different for anyone (and certainly isn’t found on any height/weight or BMI chart). Anywho, I can feel myself closing in on that happy place, and that, well, makes me happy!
How to improve next week: Just keep on eating fresh and staying active. If I keep both of those up, the scale will probably move. And if it doesn’t, it’s not supposed to.