I think what happened on Friday morning shook an entire nation (maybe even the whole globe) to its core—me included. I was fortunate enough to have a pre-scheduled family gathering this weekend where I got to spend time doing perfectly normal things like teaching my nieces to sew, laughing over goofy trivia questions and drinking cocktails with names like, “Ho-Ho-Holiday Martini”. But even with all that joy, there was this big, dark, ominous cloud hanging over us all.
Because there were 15 people running around my house, I unintentionally took the whole weekend off from my standard hyperconnectedness. I didn’t have time to check Twitter. I didn’t reply to comments. I didn’t even play a single game of Bejeweled Blitz. I admit, probably some of that disconnection came, on a subconscious level, because of an absolute selfish need to turn away. I couldn’t handle seeing one more tweet about grieving parents or curly red hair or heroic teachers or gun control or the mental health care system.
And it was exactly what I needed. Maybe it was cowardly to not stay glued to CNN all weekend long, but I’d like to think that those kids and teachers and administrators and their families and that whole dang town in Connecticut would much rather have us out there living life and hugging our families than reading article after article replaying that horrific act of evil.
I hadn’t planned on it when I started writing this post, but I think I’m going to take a break from blogging this week. In fact, I had a whole series of fun posts leading into Christmas ready to go, but I think instead, I’m going to step away for a bit. I just can’t bring myself to be cheerful or excited about eggnog martinis or what I ate on Wednesday. There are a lot of bloggers out there that are strong and powering on, and I think that’s wonderful, but my heart just can’t handle it this week.
So instead, I’m going to focus on the stuff that really matters for a few days. I love writing this blog. I love connecting with my friends on social media. And I love reading your emails. But as much fun as it is to show you guys how to make handmade Christmas gifts, it just doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things. I need a few days to process and absorb and heal and be grateful. I need a few days to remind myself of all the good that exists in this world. Not to be all cheesy, but I need to get back to my roots for a few days. I need to strip all the extraneous goo away and focus on the love I have in my life.
I’ll be back next week. Hopefully healed up a little bit and ready to ramble on excitedly about my eggnog martini recipe.
Here is a list of ways your dollars can help. I’ll be donating all my ad revenue for this week to the United Way’s Sandy Hook School Support Fund.